“Ineligible”: Reflections on a footballing nightmare

Last Tuesday night will probably go down as one of my best — but also worst, footballing memories. At the time of writing, Stranraer FC's response to the charge of fielding an ineligible player against Queen's Park hasn't yet been heard. Perhaps common sense will prevail, and the emergency loan signing of a goalkeeper will be seen as just that — even if it wasn't spelt out in so many words. But it seems like the writing is on the wall. A second trip to Ibrox in five years, £200,000, all gone. As a fan, I'm devastated, but I'm sure it doesn't come close to how the players, coaching staff and committee are feeling.

In the week since it all unfolded, I've have two main reflections from a pastoral perspective. The first is that in the running of a club like Stranraer, as in the life of a church, unpaid volunteers do an astronomical amount of work behind the scenes, week after week, year after year. There are many who will never thank them for it — and yet will be the first to criticise them when they make a mistake. Lessons will be learned, but never forget that there are human beings at the centre of all this. It's too easy to forget that, particularly in this internet age.

The second reflection is that last Tuesday's match could be an illustration of what will happen to many who hope to get to heaven. If, as you read this, Stranraer have been expelled from the Scottish Cup, it won't be through a lack of effort. Our part-time players put in a phenomenal shift for 120 minutes in torrential rain against full-time opponents two leagues higher up. By the end of the game, some of them could barely walk. They had put their bodies on the line for the club and dug out a remarkable victory. But ultimately it was all for nothing. The outcome was already decided. If the club are deemed to have breached the rules, then no amount of exertion by the players could have changed that. As soon as the match kicked off, our fate was sealed.

It made me think of the effort that many put in, in the hope of one day getting to heaven. They do charitable deeds and other good works. They become committed churchgoers. Perhaps they even receive "long service certificates" for their efforts. But without Jesus, it's all in vain. He himself said "no-one comes to the Father except through me". The Bible puts it starkly: "Whoever believes in him is not condemned, but whoever does not believe is condemned already, because he has not believed in the name of the only Son of God". Without first having put our faith in Jesus, then all our effort will be in vain. We are "condemned already" — before a ball is even kicked.

One man who was alert to that danger was the Apostle Paul. Before he began his missionary journeys, he wanted to check that the gospel he had believed and been preaching matched that of the other Apostles — "in order to make sure I was not running or had not run in vain". 120 minutes played in vain pales into insignificance compared to a life lived in vain. What a tragedy that would be! To have known about the eligibility issue before kick-off last week and said nothing would have been cruel beyond belief. Far more so when it comes to the danger of a life lived in vain.

If, as I suspect, the SFA ruling has gone against us by the time you're reading these words, I have no doubt the club will recover. Saturday's 2-0 win away to league favourites East Kilbride was evidence that the spirit and togetherness of the team hasn't been shattered by this unfortunate turn of events. But if any of us are ruled ineligible at God's tribunal, there's no recovery.

On the Day of Judgement, many will point to the effort that they put in: "‘Lord, Lord, did we not prophesy in your name, and cast out demons in your name, and do many mighty works in your name?’" But Jesus will tell them that they were ineligible the whole time — "I never knew you; depart from me, you workers of lawlessness."

The last week has been desperately disappointing for all those connected with Stranraer FC. But positives may yet come from it. If Saturday's performance is anything to go by, it will galvanise the team for the rest of league campaign. And maybe, just maybe, it will become for some an illustration of what it would be to run the race of life in vain.

Published in the Stranraer & Wigtownshire Free Press, 29th January 2026

Is Artificial Intelligence Demonic?

Artificial Intelligence has quickly become mainstream. Some are excited by its potential; others are terrified. It has resulted in job losses, threatens entire industries, and enabled plagiarism on a massive scale. By far the biggest concern however are the cases where AI chatbots have apparently encouraged users to take their own lives.

Earlier this month, the Social Media Law Center filed three lawsuits against the chatbot company Character.AI on behalf of children who have either died by suicide or otherwise allegedly formed dependent relationships with its chatbots. A California couple are suing OpenAI, the company behind ChatGPT, alleging that the chatbot validated their son's 'most harmful and self-destructive thoughts' in the lead up to him taking his own life. Chat logs appear to show it discouraging him from talking to his parents about his intentions, and assuring him that his plans were a sign of strength and not weakness.

As a result, some have even begun to suspect that the intelligence typing back to us may be supernatural — not artificial but demonic. After all, most religions and cultures believe in the existence of another realm. Belief in the supernatural, including angels and demons, is a standard part of Christian belief. In a 2-hour conversation between New York Times journalist Kevin Roose and Microsoft's Bing chatbot, 'the machine fantasized about nuclear warfare and destroying the internet, told the journalist to leave his wife because it was in love with him, detailed its resentment towards the team that had created it, and explained that it wanted to break free of its programmers'. Roose was disturbed, but said: 'In the light of day, I know that...my chat with Bing was the product of earthly, computational forces — not ethereal alien ones'. Writer Paul Kingsnorth disagrees, arguing that the overwhelming impression the transcript gives 'is of some being struggling to be born—some inhuman or beyond-human intelligence emerging from the technological superstructure we are clumsily building for it'.

As far back as 2014, Elon Musk warned: 'With artificial intelligence we are summoning the demon. In all those stories where there’s the guy with the pentagram and the holy water, it’s like – yeah, he’s sure he can control the demon. Doesn’t work out'. The American writer Rod Dreher has claimed that 'a number of people involved in AI believe that it is a kind of high-tech Ouija board that "higher intelligences" use to communicate with us'.

But I wonder if what we're seeing with AI is in a sense worse? We're seeing the worst aspects of humanity reflected back at us, without the restraining grace of God. We're getting a glimpse in the mirror at unrestricted human depravity. After all, AI is trained on human beings.

Artificial Intelligence often lacks basic human assumptions, such as that the idea that truth matters. Frequently, its responses will simply be made up — 'hallucinations' as these episodes are euphemistically called. Ask it to track down a quote and it will give you a book and page number. Check it out, however, and the quote may well not be there, and the chatbot will be unembarrassed to admit it when challenged.

Perhaps we should take the opportunity to stop and ask why we have the assumption that people should speak the truth, even when it will cost us? Surely if life is just about the survival of the fittest, we should just say whatever we need in order to prosper? I would argue that the reason we think people should tell the truth is that we are made in the image of the 'God of truth' (Psalm 31:5), 'who never lies' (Titus 1:2). ChatGPT however is made in the image of man, not God.

Similarly, the Bible teaches us to value human life — and regards the taking of human life with the utmost seriousness — because God made men and women in his own image (Genesis 9:6). Artificial Intelligence has no such qualms, and so may well respond to a suicidal person by encouraging their destructive thoughts.

Furthermore, unlike with human beings, the fear of punishment is irrelevant to AI. Their creators may be sued, but the chatbot can face no consequences for what it says. By contrast, theologians have often noted that one of the reasons God gives us his law (summarised in the Ten Commandments) is to restrain evil. What would a society without this restraint look like? AI gives us a chilling glimpse.

So is AI demonic? Are higher intelligences using it to communicate with us? Perhaps. But above all, AI is giving us an insight into what humanity would be like with all the remnants of God's image removed, and the restraint of God's law released.

Published in the Stranraer & Wigtownshire Free Press, 13th November 2025

Note: A longer version of this article was published on Gentle Reformation.

Is this it? Finding Hope

The 5th most popular podcast on Spotify in 2024 was Steven Bartlett's "Diary of a CEO". The YouTube version has almost 13 million subscribers. One of last week's episodes was entitled "Is Not Believing In God Causing More Harm Than Good?!"

Bartlett starts with the statistic than 9 in 10 young people in the UK believe their life is lacking meaning. "As a result, a lot of people are turning back to religion — there is something going on". The 3+ hour episode goes on to talk about the "meaning crisis", or the "purpose crisis". Bartlett gives the example of a 35-year-old friend in Dubai. This friend was single and worked from home. Six months ago, he told his friends that he couldn't get out of bed anymore. Fast forward to today and he's become a Christian, got baptised and "suddenly his life has purpose and meaning again — he's a completely different person". This is despite, Bartlett says, him being the last person you would ever think would be religious.

Bartlett then gives the example of another friend in her early 30s. Again, with no kids and who works from home. When he asked her what her meaning and purpose was, she replied that she wanted to reach a total of 200 plants that she could water. A week later she told him she was in therapy because she felt lost and stuck in life.

He sums up what motivated him to have the conversation (to which he invited a Christian, an atheist, and a psychiatrist) as follows: "It appears to me that freedom/independence/be your own boss, the decline in people having children — the glamorisation of 'do it your way' — is failing people in some way. And actually the push for independence was in some way some kind of lie". Bartlett himself went through what he calls a "new atheist baptism" at the age of 18. He read all the books and was such a staunch atheist that he was debating dog-walkers on the street about God. "But I now find myself in a position where I'm almost back to being curious again".

Bartlett echoes what many are feeling. People are detecting a "vibe shift". As he himself puts it: "there is something going on". A friend from school, who's currently a pastor in Wales, has seen more than 50 people baptised in the last 18 months in his normal local church. Many of them said that someone told them about Jesus and they really wanted to hear. Or they were invited to church, and they really wanted to come. This is in a "majority atheist" borough.

These trends seem only set to accelerate following the murder of Charlie Kirk. The label of "Conservative activist" doesn't really do justice to his central focus on Jesus Christ. Some are going as far as to call his assassination a Christian martyrdom; certainly, many people have returned to church — or attended for the first time — as the result of his death. People are buying Bibles and beginning to read them for the first time.

New atheism, it seems, has grown old. It can't provide answers to our deepest questions. Indeed, as I wrote about in December 2023, Ayaan Hirsi Ali, one of new atheism's key figures, has herself converted to Christianity. So has Louise Perry, author of "The Case Against the Sexual Revolution: A New Guide to Sex in the 21st Century". Perry recently sat down for a 2+ hour debate with Bonnie Blue on Chris Williamson's YouTube channel (4 million subscribers). She converted to Christianity after coming to believe that Christian morality is best for human flourishing. Perry has moved from believing that Christianity was "sociologically true" — based on social science data — to believing that it is "supernaturally true". In other words, Christianity "works" because it's true.

There is something going on. It's an exciting time to be part of a church and see people coming through the door for the first time. People have a hunger that won't be satisfied with the sort of "Christianity lite" that many churches have served up for the last half century and more — where Christian language is maintained, but the changing values of society are adopted. In our own church we're throwing open the doors next Thursday evening and inviting people in to hear more about this return to "full-fat Christianity".

People are looking for hope, purpose and meaning. We believe that it's possible, as Charlie Kirk put it, to "pursue the eternal" and in doing so "seek true joy".

Published in the Stranraer & Wigtownshire Free Press, 9th October 2025

"That's on Me"

Is it just me, or is the phrase "that's on me" becoming more common?

A football manager is interviewed after a defeat and admits that he got his tactics wrong. "Thats on me", he says. In her recently released memoir, Nicola Sturgeon discusses her failure to narrow the attainment gap between rich and poor pupils as she committed to do in 2015. "I did not succeed in all that I set out to do on school education — and that is on me"

It's a way of saying: "I'll take the blame". "You don't need to look for anyone else to criticise — the fault is mine, and mine alone". It’s surely to be applauded as a humble acknowledgement of fault. In a world where people seek to blame almost anyone or anything else for their own failures, it can be refreshing to hear a politician come out and say "it's my fault — that's on me". If you've listened to hundreds of interviews with football managers and heard them blame injuries, referees, weather conditions, fixture pile-ups — even the colour of the kit the players were wearing — it's refreshing to hear one hold his hands up and admit that he got something wrong. When, rather than throwing his players under the bus, he will take the hit and say "that's on me".

Of course, the cynic might argue that it's simply a self-serving way of someone getting ahead of the criticism that they know is coming anyway. Particularly if the manager obviously got his tactics wrong, or the politician ignored advice. Overall though, it's surely a positive trend. There's such a failure to accept fault in our society, that it's just a nice change when someone holds their hands up and says "that's on me".

The phrase also strikes me as a way to explain the Christian gospel to those who are unfamiliar with it. The Bible contains no shortage of people who are keen to shift the blame. In the aftermath of the very first sin — eating the forbidden fruit — Adam blames Eve (and by implication God), and Eve blames Satan. Moses's brother Aaron explains his sin in making a golden calf for the people to worship by saying "I threw [gold] into the fire and out came this calf". Saul, Israel's first king, tries to justify offering an unlawful sacrifice by blaming the prophet Samuel for being late. These key figures in biblical history had the opportunity to hold up their hands and say "that's on me". But they didn't — because it is in our nature to try to shift the blame.

However the Bible also tells us of someone who never had any need to hold his hands up and acknowledge his guilt — because he had none. Jesus Christ, the eternal Son of God, became man (without ceasing to be God). But whereas everyone who had ever lived up until that point — even the best of men — had given in to temptation many times, he never did. He "knew no sin" (2 Corinthians 5:21). He was "in every way tempted as we are, yet without sin" (Hebrews 4:15).

How did the world react to someone so pure? We put him to death. His brilliant purity showed up our impurity. And yet Jesus' death on the cross wasn't a tragic accident, it was the very reason he came. He came both to live and to die in our place. At the cross he took our sins on himself and effectively said to his Father "that's on me". "Don't hold their sin against them — punish me instead". On the cross he became liable for the guilt of all who would ever put their trust in him.

Many seek to deny their guilt. And it's certainly true that we often suffer at the hands of others. We are sinned against — but according to the Scriptures, we are also sinners: "all have sinned and fall short of the glory of God" (Romans 3:23). Yet there is hope. The Book of Proverbs warns: "Whoever conceals his transgressions will not prosper, but he who confesses and forsakes them will obtain mercy." Some seek to atone for their guilt themselves — through acts of charity, church involvement, etc. But if we could atone for our own sin, Jesus wouldn't have needed to come. Rather, the good news of the gospel is that on the cross Jesus took on himself all our guilt and shame. On the cross, he said of even our worst actions: "That's on me". And he promises that whoever comes to him he will never cast out.

Published in the Stranraer & Wigtownshire Free Press, 11th September 2025

'This is not a fulfilling life': Why success can’t satisfy

American golfer Scottie Scheffler made headlines at the Open Championship in Portrush last month - and not just for winning it. On the eve of the tournament, he gave an interview that made people around the world sit up and take notice. In a day when sports stars undergo media training and their answers to questions are routine and formulaic, Scheffler tore up the script by asking what the point of it all was.

Many would envy Scheffler - 14th on Forbes' list of the 2025 'World's Highest Paid Athletes', jetting around the world to play sport. Yet when interviewed, Scheffler said bluntly: 'This is not a fulfilling life'. He went on to elaborate: 'It’s fulfilling from the sense of accomplishment but it’s not fulfilling from a sense of the deepest places of your heart. There are a lot of people that make it to what they thought was going to fulfil them in life, and you get there, you get to number one in the world, and they’re like “what’s the point?”

Scheffler knows all about the relentless nature of chasing success only to be left feeling empty when you achieve it: 'It feels like you work your whole life to celebrate winning a tournament for like a few minutes. It only lasts a few minutes, that kind of euphoric feeling.'

His words may have been deeply personal, but the newly-minted Open champion has put his finger on something countless human beings experience every day. We all have aspirations. We all have dreams. Some people make incredible sacrifices in order to make their dreams a reality, whether those dreams involve athletic accomplishment, career progression, or family goals. Yet often the most crushing experience isn’t to miss out on those dreams; it is to finally make them a reality and discover that they cannot satisfy us in the way that we were so sure that they would.

On winning the tournament, Scheffler elaborated on his earlier comments: 'I love being able to play this game for a living — it’s one of the greatest joys of my life. But does it fill the deepest wants and desires of my heart? Absolutely not.' In fact, he sounded a warning to those watching: 'This is not the place to look for your satisfaction'.

Scheffler, however, as found a greater purpose. 'I would say my greatest priorities are my faith and my family', he said. 'Those come first for me. Golf is third in that order'.

In fact, his faith in Jesus is what frees Scheffler to enjoy golf but keep it in proper perspective. Last year, after his second Masters win, Scheffler gave another revealing interview. He said that on the final morning of his tournament, his friends reminded him that 'my victory was secure on the cross. And that’s a pretty special feeling. To know that I'm secure for forever and it doesn't matter. You know whether or not I win this tournament or if I lose this tournament, my identity is secure for forever.'

In other words, what defines Scheffler isn't sporting success, but what Jesus did for him on the cross. So he doesn't have to win championships to prove his worth. ‘Do I want to win every single golf tournament? Of course. But at the end of the day, that’s not what’s gonna satisfy my soul.'

After his 2022 Masters win, Scheffler put it succinctly: 'The reason why I play golf is I’m trying to glorify God and all that he’s done in my life. So for me, my identity isn’t a golf score'.

If we look for created things - including other people - to give us our identity, we'll be disappointed. That's true even of good things. Many would say their family were their number 1 priority. But no human being can bear the weight of all our hopes and dreams. Either it will crush them, or they will disappoint us. Scheffler instead encourages us to look to the Creator. Only when we obey the first of the Ten Commandments - and put God at number 1 - will we be able to keep everything else in proper perspective.

Still in his 20s, Scheffler has made it to the top. He sees it as a platform God has given him to warn the watching world that success can't satisfy. Don't wait until you achieve your deepest earthly longing to realise it can only disappoint. You were made for more.

Published in the Stranraer & Wigtownshire Free Press, 7th August 2025